Principles #3

      Its hard becoming friends with people. Though I am an outright confident person, striking conversation in a populated setting being a Starbucks tears at me from the inside out. College being a vast and seemingly exciting point in life also has its most defiant urges to lock yourself in your room and avoid the variables of the world in general. Having a minute social life in person and a sizeable social life online between a few social media apps, I've discovered its hard to remember those you've talked to and as to who said what at times. Distinguishing voices and people at face value isn't hard, yet experiences of them seem to mash into, not to make you hungry, one big cheesy meat piled casserole. One where the crusts expands so much it touches the oven element due to its insane volume. I don't like it. I feel when I accidentally forget or mistake another experience for someone else's, it feels wrong. However I can't blame my mind at times for forgetting is a human thing to do, no matter how many times.

     On the topic of people in general, the relationship of being a stranger is very interesting, intimidating to anyone you meet or fall out of love or friendship with. It could also be enticing to some. Admiring strangers for their appearance, demeanor, their coffee order, or even the way they tie their shoes is one of my favorite things to do. Not in an overly sensible way, but in an "admiring the world around me way". Seeing the small hairs on people's face and arms in overhead lighting, the distant smell of various parfums and colognes dwelling in the dorm staircase on a Friday night, the same barista who makes my order almost every time, I cherish it all. I am thankful for the place I am living and where I am within my life, where I can live freely without anyone controlling my mind. Manipulation is an awful thing, the person doing it is the superintendent of the mind you once held. Once you are tied to someone who has a say or even a slight change on your everyday behavior, it can be unnerving. A thought that runs in the mind of everyone, control. Frued theory relates, sex and aggression are the main principles of human psychology, being sexual and aggressive tendencies within all of us. Something interesting to think about Lots of work today before this next week starts, 4 exams. Not excited but I’ll get it done.

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