Raw #14

    I was thinking by a hot spring today (5/21/2025) wondering where my life, my emotions, and social status would be if I pursued and carried forth a relationship with a specific man. Wasn't of my interest at the time or now, but I'm curious as to how different it would be in a different universe, matrix, whatever you call it. In another matrix my favorite color would be pink, I would bleach my hair blonde each month and expand my extracurriculars to sororities and parties. In another I maybe would have been a man. I'll never know. In another I would be married in another country, on the west coast with a man I met just a year beforehand. Just an odd thought but I know what's best for me is yet to come. I do what is best for me in every decision I make with myself and the people around me. Being selfish is bad in context of social situations but for yourself it is ideal in order to pursue the fullest in my life. Putting yourself first toward the future is vital, tearing others down isn't. I was then together with friends by the same spring just a month later (06/27/2025) realizing what my life would be like without those friends. Specific artists, art styles, and creations of others I would have never discovered. I wouldn't know one of my favorite restaurants if it wasn't for them.
    People seem to not be thankful enough for life in general. Some say things so raw and disheartening without a thought in the world. If only there was a way to teach gratitude and respect to others universally. The world would be a better place.

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